It strange how I handle different parts of my life. It’s as though I am two totally different people when it comes to both work and…the rest of my life.
At work I’m very dedicated and outspoken. I want people to hear what I say, and I’m not going to sit back and just do nothing. Even when I don’t feel as if it’s going to really change anything, I still want my voice heard. I want to be a part of everything, so that I can try to evaluate everything. It’s like I’m always thinking about the big picture, even when I’m just a “peon.” However, unlike a lot of people in my position, I don’t want to just float through. To me, that’s normal and how it should be. Unfortunately lots of people don’t think that way.
Now, my personal life, is just about the opposite. I keep to myself, am shy, and don’t usually say anything about various topics, even though I may feel as if I have a good point. When I go out with people, I’m definitely not the one that starts randomly talking to others outside of my group, nor am I the one that adds to a political debate between people. With respect to politics and things of that nature, it’s not like I don’t have anything to say, or to add, it’s just that I don’t want to bother. Maybe it’s just because I see the futility of discussing/arguing about those types of things when no one is going to change.
How can this be? How can I be so different between work and social? It’s like I’m a totally different person when I leave the office. It definitely makes me question why, and wonder how things would be different if I was more like I am at work while I’m at home. I think it would be a startling difference.